10.11.09

terlantar.. lagi..

it's really been a while since the last, and so many things had happened..

i've graduated from my high school

i've entered a good university

i've met new friends

oh yah crita ttg boy yg satu itu juga sudah berlalu.. i haven't close the book yet, but i have flipped to the last page, not sure about having a new book or continuing on that page.

ANYWAAAAYY~

this post is made due to my task... by bapak Jarot Surosooo~ *clapping hands* :D karena beliaulah ini blog kembali teraktivasi.. padahal ive promised bakal rajin2 nge blog T__T hiks..

mudah2an ga terlantar melulu yah blog ini.. heheheh

19.12.08

OMG I LOVE EDWARD CULLEN!!!

YES I INDEED LOVE EDWARD CULLEN!!! even though i hate him b4.. eheheh.. jadi bgini, lil sis baru slese baca "new moon" - Stephenie Meyer dan SUMPAH I HAVE TO ADMIT baca depannya itu bikin hati miris.. huhuhu.. i just want to put a part here, a part where i said OMG THIS IS SO SWEET!!!! hehehe..

anyway, here we go, aga panjang sih, tapi nga full ko, ada yg dipotong..this is the part when bella asked to edward and the whole family (AGAIN) to be one of the Cullens.. yg nga mau baca skip sendiri..



"I would want...Carlisle not to have to do it. I would want you to change me."

I watched his reaction warily, expecting more of the fury I'd seen at his house. I was surprised that his expression didn't change. It was still calculating, thoughtful.

"What would you be willing to trade for that?"

I couldn't believe my ears. I gawked at his composed face and blurted out the answer before I could think of it.

"Anything"

He smiled faintly, and then pursed his lips.

" Five years?"

My face twisted into an expression somewhere between chagrin and horror.

"You said anything," he reminded me

"Yes, but...you'll use the time to find a way out of it. I have to strike while the iron is hot. Besides, it's just too dangerous to be human - for me, at least. So, anything but that."

He frowned. "Three years?"

"No!"

"Isn't it worth anything to you at all?"

I thought about how much I wanted this. Better to keep a poker face, I decided, and not let him know how very much that was. It would give me more leverage. "Six months?"

He rolled his eyes."Not good enough."

"One year, then," I said. "That's my limit."

"At least give me two."

"No way. Nineteen I'll do. But I'm not going anywhere near twenty. If you're staying in your teens forever, then so am I."

He thought for a minute. "All right. Forget time limits. If you want me to be the one - then you'll just have to meet one condition."

"Condition?" My voice went flat. "What condition?"

His eyes were cautious - he spoke slowly.

"Marry me first."




OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDD~~!!!!!! I REALLY LOVE THAT SCENEEE!!! ahahahahha.. not that i want it in short period, but i DO WANT IT!!!! *a note for my boy :D heheh*

tapi abis itu aga2 anti klimaks xD heheh


"I'm only eighteen"

"Well, I'm nearly a hundred and ten. It's time I settled down."


HAHAHAH kasian bgt si edward xD heheheh

ANYWAY setelah berjijay2 ria baca depannya...NEW MOON TERNYATA MEMANG BIKIN BETE.. udah dpnnya bikin bete.. blkgnya juga.. GANTUNG CRITANYAAAAA... beteee.. harus baca yang ketiga!!! mu minta bertha bawain ahhhh~~ hehehehe...


despite of the title of the blog entry, my heart is still only for my boy xD hehehe..

18.12.08

courtesy to toki no tabibito :)

bwat lily!!!
dun be sad girl!!!
never look back on history, but learn from them for ur future ;)

she was complaining why do parents kinda push their kids to learn sumthing.. in our case, we gotta learn piano from the very start of our life.. since we're just a kid.. however, orangtua memang paling tau apa yg paling baik buat kita, u have to admit dat, meskipun setelah beberapa taun, we found out that it is useless for us.. but at least we've tried, kalo nga disuruh blom tentu kita bakal coba toh? :)

cheer up lily!! paling nga skrg lo masih menekuni piano, dan masih berjalan mulus toh? skrg lil sis udah brenti les piano, maen piano juga hardly ever..awalnya sih karena tugas - tugas skul yg numpuk banget bikin lil sis nga kuat lagi kalo musti tetep rutin latian piano.. jadilah waktu SMA i stop study piano and trying to learn by myself (yg gagal total :P)

until sumday, waktu ada tes bakat minat, pada kertas yang berisi keterangan2 mengenai lil sis, salah satunya mengatakan kalo bakat lil sis bukan pada bidang musik.. and you know what? when my dad read it, he said

"pantes dulu kamu brenti main piano"

dengan nada yg sumpah nga enak banget.. well, it is my fault for not having the ability to play piano well?? kalo memang bukan bakatnya ke situ, memang nga mudah toh?? i really dun like it when he said dat.. yah walopun lil sis nga bilang apa2 sih.. tapi sakit hati aja..

well ANYWAY, dun be sad ly, u're the one who still study it, and use dat chance! :) tapi jangan ragu2 bwat ngungkapin ke ortu lo kalo ada apa2.. jangan pendem sendiri.. okay girl? ;)

8.12.08

another sweet song :)

PLAIN WHITE T's - 1 2 3 4

1-2-1-2-3-4
Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4

There’s only one thing to do, three words, for you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say those three words, that’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you

Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4

There’s only one thing to do, three words, for you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say those three words, that’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you

(I love you) I love you

You make it easy
It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4

There’s only one thing to do, three words, for you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say those three words, that’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you

(I love you) I love you

1-2-3-4

I love you
(I love you)
I love you


my boy is on the way home!!! can't wait to meet him very soon!! XD

4.12.08

Sedih.. sedih..

Sedih.. sedih.. sedih... sedih...

nga isinya nga sedih duank ko.. heheh but lil sis is REALLY sad by now.. bcoz her boy is away in a very damn cruel way..

it's all started dari ulum kmaren.. yeah i've just finished my end of semester exam.. baru aja hari rebo kmaren.. kesialan sudah dimulai di hari jumat kemaren..
Jadi bgini.. jadwal ulum di skulnya lil sis itu kan nga banyak2 brubah, dari semester ke semester brikutnya itu mirriiippp.. nah dengan PD Jaya, lil sis hari kamis itu blajar fisika..dengan keadaan yang semaput karena emang lagi sakit T__T flunya parah bgt deh kmrn itu.. udah stenga mati ngapalin rumus yg ngujubile banyaknya itu, terjadilah seuatu kebodohan..pagi2 di bawah tangga i met vina..

vina: hai ce
grace: oi vin
vina: aduh ce kmaren akirnya gw cuma blajar 2 jam sama japri (another friend's name)
grace: hahah gw udah setres.. akirnya gw cuma ngapalin rumus duank..
vina: ...RUMUS APAAN? EMANG ADA RUMUS??
*Takjub, fisika emang kalo bukan rumus apaan?*
grace: hari ini...fisika kan?
vina: GILA LO CE HARI INI BIOLOGI

dan dunia pun kiamat xD...

huahahahahahahaha smpah itu gw panik stenga idup dengernya, mata membelalak jantung dagdigdug kaki lemes xDxD ITU BODOOOOHHH BANGEEETTT!!! *menyesali kebodohan sendiri* gw yakin nga bakal bisa ngejar 5 bab biologi dalam stenga jam.. karena lagi teler akibat flu dan MEMANG NGA BAKAL BISA... jadi dengan sangat menyesal.. gw pulang.. huhuhuh.. kepada bapak ibu guruku yang budiman dan baik hati kalo ada yg baca PLEASE keep it as a secret.. huhuhuh dan maap kepada 2 guru bio yang dikira guru fisika.. hahah..

sampe rumah jadinya langsung tidur.. tepar.. lumayan juga blajar fisika 2 hari xD heheh..

it's the first unluckyness i had.. the second, pas hari sabtunya, nga bisa resist ga buka facebook.. heheh so i did opened it.. at yeah another shit happened T__T jadi begini.. ada satu mantannya my boy yang SUMPAH SUPER RESE BETUL.. beliau beda 6 taun (nga salah ketik..ENAM tahun sodara2) dan dia obviously nga suka kalo gw pacaran sama mantannya itu.. jadi she keeps sending me junk mails yang intinya berisi manas2in.. kalo ada yg mau tau seberapa jerk dat girl, gw punya soft copy pembicaraannya xD sebagai contoh bagi kalian2 yg ingin pintar, jgn lakukan itu.. hohoho... maap2 aja nih, tapi dari isi mailnya itu, yang nga penting itu, kalo org laen baca, skali lagi sorrryyyyy, bakal mengira dia cewe panggilan kegatelan (well dat's wat one of my friend said when she read the mails..) lil sis sih slama ini baca itu udah nga peduli.. ketawa ketiwi aja bacanya.. super goblog abisan.. --a
oh yeah, back to the topic, beliau kembali ngirim mail2 yg nga jelas itu.. and i talked to my boy how to STOP her... krn yg lalu2 nga bhasil.. after we sort of having chat, he agreed to tell me everything yg urgent menyangkut itu cewe.. TAPI MALEMNYA~~ bete deh ternyata dia dimintain tolong or whatsoever it called untuk jadi "fotografer" ENTAH APAPUN MAKSUDNYA ITU.. they want to this girl's reunion party, and he said dat he talked about us to her AGAIN.. tapi yg bikin bete adalah, HE DIDN'T TOLD ME HE WAS GOING SUMWHERE WITH HER!!! really hate dat.. telpon nga diangkat, sms nga dibales.. dan kesabaran lil sis mancapain puncaknya setelah nunggu about 3 hours or more.. lil sis said i'm going to wait 4 him.. whether he gonna contact me or not...
a text messages came aroung 11pm.. hebatnya, lil sis yg kalo udah tidur lupa daratan ini kebangun dengan hanya 3x vibrate pendek.. ahahah.. yah intinya dia crita dia ngapain sama siapa kemana.. and he said he slapped her.. aga senang sih dengernya.. hahah.. tapi ttp aja bete krn nga dikabarin.. but dat problem had cleared anyway..walopun tidak dengan cewe itu..

third unluckyness..hari rebo kmren.. lil sis harus susulan biologi menggantikan kebodohan di atas.. hwahahaha.. di saat smua org udah senang2, i still have to study.. huhuhu.. dan itu critanya siang abis lil sis slese susulan i was planning to go to dufan with 5 friends and my boy.. berhubunga lil sis aga2 katro xD udah lama banget nga ke dufan entah sejak kapan, jadi tuh nga konsen blajar bio krn terkontaminasi euforic yg berlebih.. hahahah.. dan lil sis dah lama nga bisa ketemu my boy krn byk hal.. so i was very2 excited and looking forward to it..

but the forth unluckyness came .. si vina tiba2 malem slasa telpon.. she said she cant go.. AAAAAA~~ itu udah prasaan nga enak banget... dan lagi itu kan jadinya tinggal ber5, kalo lagi naek wahana ganjil kan nga enak.. seringnya kan couple2 gitu seatnya.. yah well tapi apa boleh buat.. dat's wat i thought b4 the fifth unluckyness..

we were ready to go, when i called my boy, asking where he is.. when he said..



that he cant go...



i was really pissed off

fucked off

and whatever equals dat..



he cant for some, actually, reasonable things, tapi i HATE IT SO MUCH karena mendadak banget.. but i can understand quite rite.. we still go to dufan though.. heheh.. pas lagi maen wahana, ada satu yg pas seatnya 2-2.. kekawatiran lil sis bakal nga enak karena ganjil jadi ilang.. dan itu karena my boy nga ikut..

yah memang harus ada yg berkorban.. dalam kasus ini mungkin lil sis yang harus berkorban nga bisa ketemu my boy.. hhhh~


and i really miss him now.. sialnya dengerin lagunya sasha.. ditemani dengan makian cewe yg tadi di 4 mail sekaligus... hhhh~

my body is tired of walking and playing..

my mind and brain is tired of exams...

but mostly, my heart is tired of waiting and is full for patience..

it's not his fault
it's no one's fault
it's just another unluckyness chain on me..i keep saying dat all day yesterday to prevent me from gloomy mood and shed a tears..

but those things wont change my love towards him..

dat's why i'm gonna wait

wait

and wait..


until he gets home and finally hug me again..

sentimentil part 2~

my boy is away.. so.. maybe this is a cure for me..

Owner of my heart - Sasha

If you think I've let you down
Tried to fool you
There's no need to
If you think I've played around
Why'd you worry
You should know me
I've been true right from the start
You're the owner of my heart

If you look straight in my eyes
You will know I'm not pretending
I don't hide, there's no disguise
Why you doubt me, that's a strange thing
I've been true right from the start
You're the owner of my heart

I can't stand by watching you walk away
Knowing you still belong with me
Close by my side
You think I don't care
But forever, I swear
Ooh, my love has grown stronger
And that I can't hide
I've been true right from the start
You're the owner of my heart

Ooh…

I've been true right from the start
You're the owner of my heart

Oh, oh, no one can tell me
Cause I know for sure
When I'm not with you, baby
I'm wasting my time
I'll do anything that you want me to do
Ooh, just call out my name
Can't she give me a sign
Give me a sign, oh, oh

If you just give me some time (some time)
To convince you
We can pull through (we can pull through)
Let me see what's on your mind (on your mind)
I won't change you, I don't have to
I've been true right from the start (oh, oh, oh)
You're the owner of my heart
I've been true right from the start
You're the owner of my heart
I've been true right from the start
You're the owner of my heart

huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~ T______T

8.11.08

lagi sentimentil.. just for my boy..

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz


Well you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's gonna to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment, maybe sing with me
All - ah peaceful melody
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch on closer dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
Please don't, please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This is out fate, I'm yours =)

tomorrow is the third month honey.. love you..